Moving on…

Hi everyone,

This is just a post to inform everyone that has followed me so far, that I’ve created a new blog linked to the same account as ourlastsummer2013. I will send customized messages to all my followers as I make the transition from ourlastsummer2013 , and settle into my new blog ThePensiveReverie (thepensivereverie.wordpress.com). More information on ThePensiveReverie, and its contents will soon be posted on the new site, as I make the transition. Ultimately, ThePensiveReverie will become my primary blogging site.

Thanks everyone. See you there!!!

A New Beginning…

Time is precious.

I stumbled into silence for a year since my previous post. Much has happened in my life within that period of time. There have been pockets of happiness, and inspiration, accompanied by an equal share of bitterness, and uncertainty.

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But, as it is with everything in life, those moments have come to pass, and in their passing, I’ve gained something equally significant, having come to terms with my identity.

“Take a step forward, not in doubt of what you expect to achieve in your life, but in anticipation of what you may not, and strive to make what may not be necessarily be possible now, a reality, so that one day, you can look back, in satisfaction, not at a window in time, but rather perpetual ripples in space, left in your wake, among the lives of those who you have influenced, the hearts of those who you have touched, and the dreams of those you have inspired, and realize a life that is complete not by your singular individuality, but by those whose lives are complete because of yours…”

I wrote this a year ago, chasing the heels of my 24th birthday, and now to read it a year later, I feel very content to know that I’ve taken the first of many steps toward accomplishing my dreams, and aspirations. A long road lies ahead, full of twists, and turns.

Turning the page on one chapter of my life, I’m excited to start on this new adventure. It is in that vein, that I’ll now be transforming this blog from its foundation. I had originally used it as a platform to promote my autobiography. I now intend to change it to a personal blog that will be more geared towards the discussion of my daily interests, thoughts, profession, and myself.

I’m thankful to all the people who had visited my blog in the past, and I apologize for the one year of absence. I haven’t been consistent with the things that I’ve always enjoyed working on, and I’m glad now, more so than ever, that I have the chance to start fresh.

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As the days go by, the blog’s transformation will be complete, and along with it is the beginning of a new journey in my life. I look forward to engaging with everyone on the way.

In my next post, get ready for an all-new introduction to ME, and this blog!

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24

I recently turned 24 years old.
Amid all the celebration, and happiness, I felt a slight sense of trepidation in the rapid passing of time. This could be attributed to how humans, in general, are highly attuned to their surroundings, in particular, to certain cyclic processes that govern our daily lives. I have also had the share of meeting many who rather remain ignorant of those same minute details. I do not bear any judgment on either party. To each, its own end, and inspiration :)
In my case, I have the habit to be highly contemplative about my feelings, and thoughts. It fits, in many ways, with my introspective character. This time, I took to comparing my life of 24 years, to that of others of my same age in this world, and furthermore to the history of our Earth, and farther beyond to the universe.
I am now 24 years old. The Earth is about 4.5 billion years old, and the universe, a whopping 13.82 billion years. Of course, there are some giant gaps in between, including the myriad details of the formation of our universe, down to our galaxy, our solar system, our planet, and the evolution of life on Earth.
In the space of such grand frontiers, and progress, my existence, not to mention, that of humanity seems so minute. It is not the first time I have reconciled with such a thought. Many at times, I quote to Leah, on our frequent outings, with reference to the countless stars in the sky, that the period of time between our lives now, to our eventual passing in the future, is like a small, flickering candle against the empty void of space.
Even the glorious embers of the night sky, the stars, are vulnerable to this passing of time, yet do they not still burn despite the obvious outcome?
I am lucky to have the support of a wonderful family: a mother whose unconditional love taught me the worth of compassion, a father, in whose shadow, I’ve learned discipline, humility, and courage, and a sister, in whose happiness, I have learned how important it is to laugh, and be happy about who I am, and a large group of friends, and a partner for life (that’s you, Leah), in whose counsel I have learned the legacy of living a meaningful life.
Leah often mentions how we are nothing more than small ripples in space, and time, carried by the current of a life-stream that we may never truly comprehend.
Even so, I feel it provides a greater incentive to burn, in our short existence, like the stars. To live as luminous beings, such that we bring the comfort of our light to those who may suffer in the dark, and in our passing, leave a legacy that can never be forgotten, but will be passed on, and become an artifact of time itself.
If humanity can harness this spirit…I believe we could aspire for even greater heights, above, and beyond just our mortal shells…
I wish to do this in my life, and mold these thoughts into action, in my own life journey. Where this may lead me, I am not too sure, driven merely by dreams as I am now. I remain confident that as long as I am able to inspire one among the many who may follow me, I will find success in my endeavors.
And so, in conclusion, I am thankful for this rapid passing of time, for these 24 years, for all that I have experienced in this life so far…I am truly lucky, and blessed to have the support of all my friends, and everyone I have met in my life, most importantly my family.
I wish to live a good, and meaningful life…where this journey will take me, is a story for another time…
But until then, I can look up to those stars, and like you said, Leah, burn as bright as we can in this wonderful life that lies open before all of us…

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Ripples in Space…

Once in a while, I get an epiphany.

The last of such occurred in 2013, when I decided on a  course of action that allowed me to follow my heart’s call. That call came in the form of someone who is now a consistent presence, and a close companion in my daily life: Leah Winters. It was very much a culmination of overwhelming feelings of joy, love, desire, passion, and all that is wonderful in life.

But reaching farther into the past, I recall the summer, prior to my final year of undergraduate studies, at a particularly low point in my life, when for no discernible reason, I received an enlightening realization of the future that lay ahead of me. The same realization led me to the subsequent decisions I made in the wake of the feelings I reciprocated with Leah, along with my family, and myself in the years that followed.

And so, now, when I look in the mirror, I see not my reflection, but more of a window in time, portraying the varying facets of my identity that I have embraced, shunned, and some that I have yet to confront.

A year from now, I will complete my Masters degree. Where then? How do I find a place for myself in this world?

I have always dreamed of being at the forefront of something that may be greater than myself. I have dreamed of being a pioneer, and an innovator. I have always had a deep wish to help others around me, and this world. Yet, I struggled to understand how I could achieve any such thing, when at first I truly couldn’t comprehend how to help myself.

It was at this point when I ultimately realized something new. Couldn’t it be possible that I may achieve all the same by in fact pursuing those same dreams, despite my own inner conflicts? That the answers I seek are not hidden, but rather await my own inner resolve to move forward?

And because of this, I can’t help but laugh at what a wonderful day it has been, and what a wonderful life I have had.

It is filled with its fair share of misgivings, but beckons in a grand adventure that I am to experience. It is quite similar to a perpetual game of hide, and seek, but one that could only be initiated if I had the courage to step forward, even as I am blind, to what awaits me in this life.

The passing of time seems quite dramatic amidst the company of such thoughts. It is frightening, and yet somehow comforting. I find it beautiful that life is filled with such sweet dichotomies…

And so, I now say to my reflection, “Take a step forward, not in doubt of what you expect to achieve in your life, but in anticipation of what you may not, and strive to make what may not necessarily be possible now, a reality, so that one day, you can look back, in satisfaction, not at window in time, but rather perpetual ripples in space, left in your wake, among the lives of those who you have influenced, the hearts of those you have touched, and the dreams of those you have inspired, and realize a life that is complete not by your singular individuality, but by those whose lives are complete, because of yours…”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Contemplating Differences

 This will be the first of the many posts I will present on my blog on a weekly basis. In general, my posts will range from addressing various topics of interest: daily musings, current events, philosophy, scientific topics etc.
I welcome my readers to respond, and comment, but please do so in a respectable manner.
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A new adventure beckons in the life of someone I hold dear to my heart. My younger sister, Beatrice, will soon embark on a wonderful journey as she pursues higher studies at university.
A few days ago, she had sent me a message detailing her excitement, and her anxieties, as she confronted the gradual changes in her life. Much of her concerns were directed towards the past few years, filled with short stints at different schools in Sierra Leone, India, and finally at UK where she had completed her schooling.
Despite being absent for the most part, I was still able to relate to her, and reached out with comforting words, hoping to share the measly bit of wisdom I had gained in my own life, during that same period of time, when I worked hard to obtain my BSc. degree at the University of Alberta, Edmonton, Canada.
I was left with many things to contemplate about after our interaction. I found it difficult to accept that the little girl I had once known as my baby sister was now a young woman moving forward with great passion, and determination on her own personal journey.
 The thought was a gentle touch of perspective of the time that had passed, and the differences that had crept into my life, and that of my family.
 Reaching back to where I once stood as a young teen of 16 years, to where I am now, a young man of 23, I can say with some confidence that, so far, I have lived my life satisfactorily without any regrets.
 I had the wonderful opportunity to complete my primary, secondary, and higher-secondary education at international schools, as my family traveled around the world. This may have spear-headed the natural incentive I chose in challenging the world view I was exposed to.
Such a course of action demanded the need to openly confront, and understand the differences I faced in the people I met, the cultures I experienced, and the life I chose to lead. In many ways, it has been a crucial factor towards structuring my identity, and beliefs as an individual.
Change comes hand-in-hand with those differences, and I have met my greatest challenge in sharing, and helping my loved ones understand those same changes. I have learned to live my life, with openness, yet dictating my choices solely out of my own free will, the one part of me that I have never ascribed vulnerable to outer influence.
 But, isn’t accepting influence a necessary factor towards understanding, and contemplating differences in the choices we make? It is a puzzle that I am yet to solve. Much rests on the solution I find, and a difficult one at that it will be.
 But for now, I am happy, and glad to continue my daily ruminations on this subject…
Though at times, I feel that the differences that I identify may be the cause of distance between me, and my family, it hasn’t at one bit relegated my love for them.
 After all that has been said, I’m very proud of you Beatrice. You have followed a path very similar to mine, and have now begun to confront those same changes, and differences. I look forward to seeing where these questions will take you, and the answer you will find. I love you sweet-heart!
 I would also like to use this occasion to give my heartiest congrats to one other special person who is dear to me, Leah Winters ,my girlfriend, who recently graduated, and successfully completed her BSc. degree, and is set to contemplate on the impending changes,and differences of her life with me!

It’s good to be back!

Hi everyone,
It has been a busy few months since my last post, but I’ve now successfully completed the first year of my Masters. I am currently spending my summer working as a research assistant, and focusing predominantly on my thesis!
This summer has also provided its share of delights, in particular, the publication of my two research papers, which for anyone who is in the field of Biophysics, feel free to check the following links!
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(1) ” Reconstructing folding energy landscapes from splitting probability analysis of single-molecule trajectories” PNAS 2015 ; published ahead of print May 26, 2015,  doi:10.1073/pnas.1419490112
(2) “Transition-Path Probability as a Test of Reaction-Coordinate Quality Reveals DNA Hairpin Folding Is a One-Dimensional Diffusive Process”
Krishna Neupane, Ajay P. Manuel, John Lambert, and Michael T. Woodside
Phys. Chem. Lett.20156(6), pp 1005–1010, DOI:10.1021/acs.jpclett.5b00176
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Though my thesis work has precedence, I hope to dedicate an hour or so every day to focus on my writing. As such, I am happy to say that after a year of brainstorming, I have finally begun working on my latest short novel. I can can hint that it revolves around the daily struggles of two different people of varying backgrounds, cultures etc. and how those differences come to play in their lives, and subsequent meeting.
Unlike “Our Last Summer” where I intentionally catered my writing for a younger audience, my new short novel will be geared towards an older audience. Consequently, my progress has been a lot slower in comparison, but I am aiming to complete the novel by this September.
Two more writing projects are to follow afterwards, but more about that later ;)
As I mentioned in the previous post, over the course of the coming days, I will be slowly transforming this blog from its original purpose as a marketing tool for “Our Last Summer” to a general author/ “something” page.
I intend to post at least one or two big messages on a weekly basis. This may range from just general posts on my daily life, my thoughts on the current events of the world, updates on my writing, the promotion of my old, and new works, my scientific work etc.
I encourage discussion as long as it is not offensive to any other members of the blog. I also look forward to interacting with everyone who has been following my blog so far :)
As mentioned earlier, this blog will serve as the base of my communication, but my posts will be automatically rerouted to my other pages as well:

(https://www.facebook.com/groups/OurLastSummer/)

(https://twitter.com/OurLastSummer1)

I promise to do my best in keeping everyone notified of the changes, and look forward to interacting with  you all!

Changes!

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to give a brief note on the changes that will be made on this blog.

I am hoping to, in the near future, to slowly transform this blog from its original purpose as a marketing tool for my book to a general author/”something” page.

As of now, I have  a variety of ideas on the type of content I would post and communicate with my readers. In general, it will vary from aspects of daily life, current events, to excerpts on my current writing adventures, and the occasional promotion of new works.

I will keep you all notified on any changes that are to be made. I also intend to reboot my Facebook group (https://www.facebook.com/groups/OurLastSummer/) with a personal author page (which I have just started setting up). This will also apply to my Twitter page (https://twitter.com/OurLastSummer1).

Altogether, while this blog serves as the base of my communication, my posts will be automatically rerouted to my other pages as well. I will keep you all notified of the changes, and hopefully by this summer (once I finish my wonderfully stressful, and time-consuming Masters courses) the blog will have transformed into a new haven for jolly discussions, and day to day conversations with my audience, and everyone else who is willing to join me on this ride.

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